damn it....why must it be me...its damn unfair...among the 3 of us..i got it..yet i spend e most time lookin after it...nw...it is slowly eating me inside...eating the confidenc i used to have..is this a test or a retribution to me...i've been makin the effort..but theres no improvement..why...this is unfair man..sigh..i know this road to healing, is gona be a long and tedious one....but day by day..its eatin me inside..driving me insane.....can u make it go away....sigh....

buried under so many freakin projects which i dun have a clue on hw or wat to do....sigh...so much to do...in so little time..this is an insane course..thing is..i thought it was my interest..however, i was proved wrong time and time again....sigh.....why will e furture be like i will nv know..but i just got to hang in there and grad with a dipl...dun wana givbe up half way..im almost there..!!

its gona be julian's the great bday soon..yay..but celebration might be canceld dued to term test 2...hw sad...sigh...